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For the first time in my life, I have enemies (or at least, I am aware of my enemies). Enemies that, if given the chance, would seriously hurt me and possibly kill me. For the first time, I can relate with many of the Psalms that speak of being hunted, stalked, having enemies plotting your downfall. For so long, they felt so distant but now they feel so alive. The Psalms are even more than before, a source of tremendous comfort. I must learn to trust in God as David did, in spite of those lurking in the dark who would love to smash your face with a baseball bat, or the butt of a gun. For God has given us many promises of protection and providence that demand faith and trust in Him to be fulfilled. I have come to a place which is totally new to me. It is unknown, dangerous, scary territory yet it is fertile and has tremendous potential for LIFE. Life that this world does not offer. However, the cost for this life has never been so revealed to mine eyes. The demand for faith and trust, which are normally considered only an unnecessary luxury (even in a ‘relationship’ with God!) are thumping in my chest, bidding me to come. To come. To come to the abandon of one life for another. An exchange. An exchange for trust and faith in myself for trust, faith, and promise from the only one who has any to offer.